I'm struggling with the notion that now that I'm engaged, there's an expectation that I'm supposed to obsess about my weight, my goal weight, multiple daily workouts and a magical dress size that I'm supposed to fit into by next summer.
Sure, I want to continue to eat healthy and make good choices and continue recovering from my eating disorder and to take care of my body. That's what I want more than anything. And that's what I'm focused on - the baby steps it takes for long-term good health.
So I'm afraid this whole obsession that brides seem to get about THE perfect dress (that they see on a model that looks nothing like ME) and THE perfect weight are going to take over. It hasn't yet, but I want to make sure I continue to make the choices I'm making for the long haul....and not just because I'm getting married and I have unrealistic expectations of what my body should look look like on one particular day.
The commitment I'm making to my health right now mimics quite closely the commitment I'm making to my fiance. For the rest of my life, I promise to love my body every day, to make decisions about it's health and happiness every day. I promise to not give up in the difficult times, and not take it for granted when things seem to be sailing along smoothly.
How do you quiet "The Big Day Diet Voice"?