So I went back to the couch today. The therapist's couch, that is. Had my first appointment yesterday and so far, so good. Our time was spent mostly on administrative stuff, paperwork, insurance, reviewing my medical history, etc. but I got a feeling that I'm going to like her.
She did make me feel comfortable and able to share more in about 20 minutes of talking to her than I've ever shared with some friends. It may help that I've now said some of this stuff out loud before. It's not so much of a shock to hear it said. It's not been bottled up for years, hidden away and trying to be forgotten.
As much as I gained out of therapy the last time, I was never able to fully open up to my crazy lady, and I don't want to have those limitations this time. This time I'm actually excited to be going, to be learning more about myself, feeling more open and accepting of my life, being happy. It's a nice change to not be so scared to figure this all out.
Today I'm grateful for: the sun shining, the woods, tea